SOL #1

Blame myself, fault I cannot comply

Feelings of damage undertaken within palpitations in my mind, fault, mine to bear. The mentality of
oneself is quite unmistakeable, feelings below the heart surround the heart and butterflies quivering
in acid. I, myself, and I cannot fathom how the body may shudder, try as I try, I presume what the
sensation is like.

Should I blame myself? My mothers ache has returned. The desolation within her soul risen anew, I
am lost, I cannot save her, why must we be tormented within our minds of such trivialities, why can
we not be strong.

I am in a pool infested with sharks, my mother looks at me, and I at her, she turns to the forest, I
scream for her, she does not hesitate, the forest has consumed her, I cannot move from fear of
myself, I am held back by these carnivores for if I lament against the waves they will surely stir. I
want to help, though I am stuck, with these feelings, with this pity, unable to comprehend, although
I try, and I must. Only they can step through the darkness, into the light of the morning star. I can
never put myself in the place they stand, I hope I never can, for I am afraid that I too will be
consumed by the forest.

Restrain my emotions, become one with the desert, I will sink. Distancing myself from myself till I am
nothing but sand, and I can no longer see from right and wrong, all will be calm. I cannot comply, for
I care too much, I must stand firm in my purpose, for I am the only one who can and I must support
the foundations of those that I hold dear, even if it means my own destruction.

Blame myself, fault I cannot comply.